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Fast, Fear, and Frustration

Navigating mid-life in Manhattan: My another chapter of personal journey started so awful...

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Hey everyone,

Coming to you from the heart of New York, I wanted to share something a bit more personal today. You know me as a health coach and personal trainer, always ready with a tip or a motivating word. But I've been doing some soul-searching and wise-fitness lately, especially as I hit that big 5-0 mark. Yep, your coach is human too!

So, I've been strolling through the city, and it's impossible not to notice those little signs of aging. A few more laugh lines, a bit of grey sneaking in – you get the picture. And with this, there's been a whirlwind of thoughts about getting older. It’s like, one day you're feeling unstoppable, and the next, you’re wondering where the time went.

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My First "Aging fear attack" was at my 25th birthday, that I believed the first turning point of aging. I decided to run a full marathon in the age of 27. So, I started to walk to the office about 3 miles away from my appartment) instead of taking a subway which was my initial marathon training! It took me 2 years to complete my first New York City Marathon in 1994 at 3:39:56, that qualified me to run a Boston Marathon.

Honestly, it's been a mix of coaching others and then taking a hard look at myself. The questions keep rolling in – am I doing enough? What's next on this wild ride called life? There’s this odd feeling of being caught between holding onto youth and embracing the wisdom of age.

But here’s the cool part – I've been leaning on some of those life philosophies I always talk about in our sessions. Buddhism has been a real anchor, but I am still struggling to digest the concepts. I don't think I can think like a Dalai Lama someday! I'm so frustrated. Marcus Aurelius would be an ideal husband, but I would be writing my unrational journal next to him. Aging is gonna happen whether we like it or not, but how we deal with it? That’s totally in our hands.

I’ve started looking at this whole mid-life thing differently. It’s not the end of something; it’s more of a shift. A chance to reevaluate and maybe reset some goals. I’m tweaking my workouts, making them more about what feels right for my body now. And I’m diving deeper into learning – staying sharp and on top of things within my control.

Meeting so many of you with your incredible stories has been amazing. It’s a reminder that we’re all in this together, each with our own battles and wins. It’s given me a fresh perspective on my own journey.

I’m starting to see this stage of life not as a crisis, but more like a new chapter. One where I get to write the script. I'm even sharing my own story with clients now, showing that it’s okay to have those fears and doubts. We’re all human, after all.

This city, with its never-ending buzz and constant change, kinda mirrors what I’m going through. It’s a reminder that change is constant, and rolling with it is part of the adventure.

So, what’s next? Well, I’m excited to find out. There’s a whole lot of life left to live, and I’m here for it. Here’s to embracing every moment, learning from it, and just being real.

Thanks for reading, and remember – we’re on this journey together. Let's make it an incredible one!

Stay healthy and inspired,


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